We all have regrets. It's the down side of life that no one seems to be able to escape from. My regret may sound ridiculous to some, but its a true story.
Ever since I was three years old I wanted to be an actress (there is home movie to back me up on this). I wanted to be one of those Hollywood greats who had style as well as talent. I flipped flopped from my pursuits over the past four years, but when I was encouraged to try out for a favorite T.V. show of mine something sparked within me.
I got my acting resume in order, scheduled time for a photographer friend to do head shots and knew exactly what song I was going to sing for the audition. All my "me time" became booked with exercising and voice warm-ups. Everything was ready for me to send in an audition tape, but I never did. I waited until the due date slipped past me and did nothing.
Why didn't I try?
It wasn't fear of rejection; high school boys numbed me to that, years ago! The truth is I was more afraid of them saying yes and me not being able to hack it then getting rejected in the first place. For that reason I chose not to be a contender.
Is this what's mean by keeping your light under a bushel? Maybe that proverb isn't just talking about giving others light, but to not let your own candle get snuffed out. What good is a candle without a spark on top of it?
Readers, I make you this promise: next time I have a chance I won't hide myself again. Not that I think I'm the most amazing at anything or that I am the next movie great, no, but I know I should at least try. I'll know then that I've given myself every chance possible to let my light shine.
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